Whats variance?

Seems like a LONG time since I've updated. I never really got to update what happened at the $300 buy-in tourney. I basically folded for an hour, didn't even complete from the small blind. I was getting the worst cards ever, but because of the buy-in I was playing with a clear head. It was almost the end of the second round and I was dealt KK from first position. I was so shocked to see a good hand that I limped in. The guy to my left made it 600 to go. Blinds were 50/100. Guy next to him calls, it folds to me and I call. Flop is 5 7 8 with two spades. I check and guy to my left makes it 2k. Other guy folds and action is on me. I have exactly 4,025. I'm thinking he can make this play with AK, AQ, AJ, A10 of spades, AA, KK, QQ, JJ, 10 10, 9 9. If he went crazy with a low pair then it was my fault for playing bad.

I push all-in and he insta-calls. Turns out he has Aces. I didn't improve and was out. I thought about it quite a bit since then and determined that I probably couldn't get away from Kings in that spot ever. Maybe if we were deeper stacked, but I chalked it up to a cold deck.

Since I busted out of that tourney I have had the worst run of cards. I was never really disappointed or down on my luck because I am at the point in my game where I know the risks and rewards or playing poker. I am willing to accept the consequences of taking a bad beat or two. I know it will come back and hit me in the nuts.

An example of running bad in a tourney: I decided to play in the Limit Hold Em tourney at Sandia with Bob this tuesday. I had to pick up Maryann from school and drop her off. So I got to the tourney 10 mins late. The second hand I get dealt KK. Freakin A. Limits were 100/200. Easiest raise I've made in a while. Like 2 people call. This guy to my left who has a Humberto shark card protector keeps calling my bets. This guy goes runner-runner diamonds to hit a flush on me. I was steaming on the 2nd hand! I fold for 30 mins and I get QQ and raise to 200. A million people call. Flop comes 8 8 8. I bet and only half a million call. turn is a 5 and I bet again. The same asshole with the shark says "son of a bitch" and calls. An Ace hits the river and he bets. I muck in disgust. He shows the Ace in his hand like he is some kind of hero.

I played 4 pots in this tourney and only won one of them.

May the best hand win: Blinds just went up to 200/500 and the guy to my left has all of my chips. I have 800, 500 of that was currently in the big blind. Nice! Lady directly to my left raises to 1k. Everyone folds to me. I consider not even looking at my cards, but I couldn't resist. J 5o, wahoo! I wish I wouldn't have looked but there is no way I can fold. This is the ideal situation for me, heads up in the pot and I'm getting amazing pot odds. I finally call and the lady has A Q. "At least you're live" she tells me. I think she just jinxed herself there because thats when my Jack hit the flop and she never improved. SHIP IT!

My fourth and final hand in this tourney was only a few hands after i doubled up with J5. I was dealt AA in middle position. Raised to 1k easily. Only had 600 left after the raise, so I'm looking to double up again. Only the big blind calls. Flop is Q J x. He bets 500, I natually go all-in. Wonder if he has QJ? He slams down JJ. LOL you play awesome buddy!! Guy goes nuts when I don't get an Ace. It kinda bums me out when, out of AA, KK, QQ, and J5 - the only hand to win was J5.